There is a first time for everything and every one

I thought this would be the most appropriate title for the first post.
But there is a deeper reason for such a title. I am thinking about the first time in life that I feel like I really have a future.
I can see it all laid out. It's not exactly all rosy but it ain't that bad. I have a lot of friends, old and new, I am trying to do the Uni thing, I am thinking about dating and relationships (that I might actually want a real one and not just a good time) and of course money. This really is a time of reflection.
Especially since my Grandmother who raised me is so sick that she won't be around much longer. It's very cliche but it really does make you think. Of course I am setting here typing this with a bottle of booze on my table listening to the Blues however, I think that just adds to the honesty. I'd like to write this without any bullshit what so ever. Especially since I doubt any one will read this.

I feel that I have a lot more to do than people think. I sorta have a part time job now taking care of some business. It's doing me well.
I am fully obsessed with mathematics and cannot get enough of it. All forms, not just the physics type. I know what you might be thinking. Math? What the hell?! But it offers a clear concisive way of thinking to figure things out. I want to know how and why and it can model these things. Even unreal things such as number theory. I mean, is a prime number a human concept or is it a universal? Stuff like that, sorta. I see it in everything and I can also see how it can make you go all Nash-ass-crazy.
I am also working on a number of other projects.

I sorta perpetuate a myth of being that lazy bastard. I like it like that. When no one ever sees the work. I know I am doing my best when people think I do jack shit. I guess I just don't like people to see the work, just the results and some times not even those. I like to snow board through life. Or at least have it appear that way.